I should let you go but I cant//Yuriko

[Tristan Gin Revanta]

Tristan stretched as he jumped out of his coffin and moved around throughout his room. He looked out the window as it was a new night. A new time. A new month. He looked at the alcohol sitting on the dresser by the packages of blood as he thought about doing another mix. He picked up the bottle only to throw it across the room. He watched as it shattered and the liquid inside went all over. He didn’t care for the fact that it got all over his pure white long haired rug that he kept in the middle of his room. “Hmph.” He started, “Typical.” He stated as he turned back to drink the blood. He had mixed it for the past month, that he noticed the different taste to the blood instantly. He looked at the bed as he noticed that it was messed up. He glanced at the spots on the rug before he leaned back against his coffin. He knew he had done it again. He had drunk himself so far that he forced himself with Yuriko again. He knew that was the only time the bed would be messed up. He knew that it has been going on for so long now that it wasn’t really much of a surprise to him. He found it more of a disappointment as he always forced himself with Yuriko so he could get a little pleasure through his most hated times.

He left his room and moved through the house before he moved out into the moonlight. He loved the night it was his most favourite time. He stretched once more as he started to look around. He had to get a little hunting in before it got to late. Swiftly taking off into the woods he started to hunt and track deer. Once he found a few he started to feed.

After a few deer he felt like his old self once more with a very low alcohol level. He started back to the house as Yuriko still ran around through his mind. He knew for a while now that he was starting to fall for Yuriko ever since the first time he spent that one pa*sionate night with her where he took away her innocence. He replayed that moment in time in his head as he could feel the rising tension once more. He soon started to move swiftly through the forest as he had to get that all out of his head before he returned. He thought about a few other times where he has gone out with Yuriko, only to drink until he was drunk where he would have the same repeat. He knew that there were only two times a year it would really happen but there have been times through out the year that he has gone out with her only to drink until he was beyond the human tolerance to alcohol and then he would have the most amazing night of pa*sion with Yuriko. At least he could stand back and say that it was great being him drunk or not since he had a very long time to master the act.

As time went on he found it harder and harder not only to get rid of the thoughts of her body, of her naked body moving and swaying in his head as he could see her move around in the room before him. Half the time he was sure it was just to taunt him. He shook his head as he tried to get her out of his head so he could return to the house. He stopped running through the forest as it wasn’t doing anything but making the blood run through his body and pulse harder. He feed off another deer before he fell back against a tree. He slid down and sat there as he had to take the time to think and get her out of his head. He was so into her and with everything going through his mind he wanted to find Yuriko and have another night with her but he knew that it would be wrong. He also wanted to tell her that he was falling in love with her and has been for some time. He just didn’t know how to tell her any of it. He wasn't even sure if he should be telling her anything about it.

[yuriko]

Yuriko was sad when she got up this amazing night, it was a new month and things were about to change again and the man she was head over heels for was going to go back to seeing her nothing more than just a sister. Walking around kitchen she put away the gla*ses and the blood that was left out from Tristan’s drinking nights and started to clean up the rest of the kitchen. The last night was the hardest on Yuriko she would cry for hours as he recovered and came back and ignored her. She really liked him that was why she let him get away with talking her into sleeping with him. She did enjoy it but it was murder on her when he ignored her.

Slamming her fist into the counter she almost screamed as the pain shot though her, she was trying so hard not to get upset he father had enough on his mind he didn’t need her sadness ringing in his ears one more time. Yuriko leaned against the counter and closed her eyes only to open them again and look around the house was calm and the fighting has stopped. It was like one big family again; but Yuri knew better a fight was going to happen soon and she was going to be the one punished. If she was breathing she would had sighed deeply and cried for hours she had loved Tristan seen the night he took her innocence away and showed her a whole new world, even when she knew all he was going to do was get drunk then get her drunk and then have a wonderful night with the one she loved. Knowing she has to hide her feelings from him which at first was hard but now was like a second nature to her. Yuriko never refused him knowing that it helped him get though the month and she was glad to be able to make sure he was safe even if it hurt her and messed with her mind.

She had to get out of the house and fast she needed to run this off so she could handle seeing him later and not have to lock herself in her room for days as she worked though the pain and loneliness that comes after every wonderful night spent with that man. “Oh Tristan…” she whispered as she darted from the house with tears of blood rolling down her eyes and getting on a white dress that her father had brought her. She was going to have to throw this one away and get a new one. Flash stepping though the forest Yuriko didn’t stop until she became weak from trying to push herself and her body to the limits. Leaning up against a tree she looked up as she heard something going. Smelling the area she knew it was Tristan, climbing the tree she leaned against she watched him drain a deer and lean against the tree it was only a matter of time before he realized she was there and more than likely he already knew seeing he was a great tracker. Deciding to forget that he was there she looked up at the night sky and smiled the moon always seemed to calm her.

Her mind started to go back to Tristan as she wondered if he was going to talk to her or just ignore her like he had done so many nights before.

[Tristan Gin Revanta]

Tristan smirked as he picked up Yuriko’s scent. He cared for her very deeply, to the point that he loved her. He knew that he hurt her on many occasions and yet she still came around him, still took to him and still loved plus slept with him. He watched her for a moment before he turned his gaze to the sky. He could pick up on her sad feelings as they tore at him. He did have feelings for her, strong feelings, but he also had stronger feelings for someone that wasn’t touchable to him. He moved quietly and quickly up towards her. “Hello, Love.” He said in a slightly sweet tone. He looked from her to the moon, “It’s a beautiful night, tonight.’ He said.

He wasn’t really sure what to expect from her at this point in time, but he did know that there was a good chance he’d be falling from that very spot. He wouldn’t stop it nor would he fight back. Whatever, happened he believed that he deserved it and therefore wasn’t going to stop it. “I am sorry that I wasn’t there when you got up.” He said in a low almost dry tone as he glanced down at the dear’s dead body before it was ascended on by wild animals which started to pull it apart. He glanced back up and over to Yuriko. He wished that he could read her mind so he knew what she was thinking. By then he could figure out what she was feeling.

“You seem upset, Everything okay?” he questioned cautiously before he looked back to the stars and the moon. “Every wonder what all could be out there?” he asked her. “Or that you could be out there?” he enquired as if he was absent minded at that moment. He had a lot going on in his mind but he had no idea how to address it or let her know. He wanted to tell her that he had strong feelings for her but he also had strong feelings for a human. He always had strong feelings towards humans but he didn’t ever really let anyone that close to him to learn of that. He envied them. He accepted that he was a blood sucking demon. A leech if it must be used but he didn’t ever stop envying the those where were mortal, had a heart beat and could feel the sun. However, he also knew that the humans could burn them just as the sun could.

[yuriko]

She looked down at him with confused eyes when he called her love he never did that in less he was going to talk her until another round. Yuriko didn’t know what to do she was so confused and almost started to feel like a weak human, sometimes she wondered if Tristan only liked her because she was still close to being human her scent reminded everyone of a human. Skylar says it is a gift and she could be used to get rogue vampires around the haven to come out, though she was happy that she had not been used as bait yet. Snapping back into reality she looked at the sky he was right it was a beautiful night out. Nodding to answer his question she remained quiet she was always quiet for a few days after Tristan month was over.

Yuriko looked down at him and blinked at his words she thought again but saying anything and smiled. “Oh Tristan, don’t worry about it I’m used to waking up alone” she said in a sweet soft tone she didn’t use her dark tone in less she had too. What a dry tone he used she had to think if he was just saying sorry or really meant it. She didn’t know what to think anymore she was just in shock that he was talking to her so soon after the month was over normally he would disappear on her all the time. Yuriko leaned against the tree still being high up in it not wanting to get down if he wanted her he would just have to come up here and take her that was doubt right there, he won’t do it; she was just a toy to him and she knew it but that was okay she loved him and would come back for more, she knew it helped him.

Yuriko was taken back this was more attention then he usually gave her after one of their nights, she had to admit she really enjoy her time with him romantically she would really give anything to be called his mate; but she was not stupid she knew her place and it was not going to change and she accepted it and was just happy that she had him for 2 months out of the year. “I’m not upset just thinking, this is how I am after… You just don’t see it” she said softly hoping that she didn’t say anything that hurt him. Yuriko hated to make him feel bad over this. “As a human? Tristan, brother I would probably already have pa*sed away by now if I was still human” she said honestly there was no reason to think about what could have been that was just a quick way to get weakened and hurt. “I don’t think much about all that I just think in the moment and right now I am honestly lost”

[Tristan Gin Revanta]

Tristan gazed up at Yuriko for a moment as he tilted his head to the side. He listened to the words she spoke before he glanced back at the trees around them. He knew that she was talking about their relationship for most of it. He knew that she was talking about him disappearing and then not talking to her for a month or so. He knew that he mistreated her a few times after all of that. He also didn’t know and realize exactly how much she meant to him either until recently. He listened to everything she had to say. He thought about everything before he glanced back up to her. “What would you say if I wanted more?” he questioned.

His mind ran through thoughts of her. Over her curves and her eyes that just wouldn’t let him go. He knew that he meant to leave, but it didn’t seem to work. He had been rushing back lately just to see her every time he did leave. He also knew that no one caught on to any of that as he did it casually. But he was finding it harder. He finally moved away from the tree as if he was going to walk away, only he didn’t. He stopped and for the longest moment he just gazed off a head as he thought about everything that he had been through and how long he had been with her doing things with her. He turned back and looked up to her. “I was trying to ... somewhere but I kept getting pulled back. I have gone on many walks, runs, and travelled around but I couldn’t stop thinking about you... about the first time I saw you... the first time I took in your scent and how after that I couldn’t forget you... I wanted to, but I couldn’t stop myself. I saw you a few times with others and with other men...even then it felt wrong to me-I should have been the one with you, sitting with you, making you laugh. I can’t get rid of the feeling... that it should have been me. I’ve been hanging around a lot more, getting to know you and the more I’ve been doing that the more I felt it. It’s been a long time since I felt like that. For the longest time, I’ve taken a girl, gotten to know her then I didn’t want her any longer. With you the feeling just got stronger and stronger...until I realized it. And then to find out that the reason I felt like that-like you were some part of me I’d lost and never even knew I was missing until I saw you again.” He said before he moved up through the tree up towards her. “...I can’t stand to watch you date others, fall in love with someone else or anything deeper and stronger...” he said. “The thoughts I feel as though I die a little bit more every day with those thoughts.” He said as he stopped just in front of her. He touched her with his fingertips gently, tracing the outlines of her cheeks down to her lips. “I love you. I love you more with each pa*sing day and I will love you until the day I die... even in hell I will still love you.” He spoke softly, “I always looked at myself as a monster... and I might have done things that maybe gave you and everyone around me the idea that I do them just to show that I am a monster... but I was human once.... and deep down I am still partially human just like everyone else... and I know this because a monster can’t feel love they can only want. And I do feel love towards you.” He whispered to her before he leaned in to kiss her gently.

He leaned back and looked at her as he didn’t know what to expect from her from by what he had told her. He looked into her eyes, “Then allow me to find you.”

[yuriko]

Yuriko didn’t know what was going to happen normally Tristan would not be this close after one of their nights together exactly he was acting weird. Part of her started to wonder if this was a trick. What did he take her for a blond stupid girl that was easy to woo? Okay so maybe she was easy but only for him she had a soft spot for him. Looking down at him she decided to move up the tree a little more as to hid her eyes from him, just on look into his beautiful eyes and she was his and there was no hiding her thoughts from him when their eyes met. It was sad that two people with so much heat and pa*sion in their relationship could be so distant. ”What would you say if I wanted more?” she blinked what did he mean by that? Moving around to another branch she thought about her next words. “Tristan, you want more? What sex?” Looking away for a moment what if he meant more as in more of a relationship? That is a laugh Tristan liked humans there was no way he meant he wanted a relationship with her.

Yuriko had to hold on the tree as she suddenly heard his next words ”He came back for me? I am nothing special…He can’t stop thinking about me…Well that is just weird that we can’t stop thinking about each other but nothing more than sex is wanted” she thought to herself as she shook a little as she started to fear that he was just saying all this to get her to come down and he could take her again. “Tristan I haven’t been with anyone but you those others were stupid human and vampire boys that could not help but fall for me but I pushed them all away” What was he getting at? Was he just playing with her to see what she would do? He mind was racing with thoughts she didn’t even notice that he had climbed up the tree and was coming towards her. Suddenly she was looking into his eyes as he continued to speak she was in complete shock not sure what to say or do and felt like any minute she was going to fall out of the tree and wake up from this dream.

Yuriko closed her eyes as he touched her with his fingers gently her head started to spin wildly as her eyes snapped open and looked at him in shock with tears in her eyes as she started to struggle with her thoughts of if he really meant it or if he was just saying it to get some, but wait this was Tristan he hated the words I love you…he had never said them before and if there was one thing she knew about him he would not joke about it. “Tristan….” She whispered softly it was the only thing that she could get out sitting there in front of him looking like a deer in headlights she nodded as she stared into his eyes showing all the love she had been hiding was in her eyes so he could see it. “If you think you can find me please be my guest” she said in a shaky tone.

[Tristan Gin Revanta]

Tristan watched her carefully when he felt a ping deep inside which he covered so she couldn’t see. He knew that it was a moment of pain, of rejection when she moved farther up in the tree and onto a few different branches. He wasn’t going to let her see that it bothered him when she moved way. He couldn’t help but smile and almost laugh when she asked if he wanted more sex. He shook his head for a moment, “No, well yes but that’s not what I’m talking about.” He said. “I’m talking about something more... something deeper between us.” He added, “Something that wasn’t just built and based around sex.” He knew that his one down fall with her is his thing towards humans but in his eyes, he had fallen for Yuriko. He didn’t like the idea of losing her and he wouldn’t have come to the realization that he did if it wasn’t for some of his friends. He wanted more, he wanted a relationship with her. He wanted to be the man in her life that she could turn to, rely on, and trust. He already knew that she had everything he wanted, craved and more. Now, all he had to do was get her to realize what he realized and to accept it. He focused on the positive and instead of listening to the vague voice in his mind going, ”She’s going to turn you down.”

He glanced down for a moment as he listened to her before he looked back up at her. “Well, that’s a bonus to know.” He said. He looked deeply into her eyes as he remained in front of her. He held onto the tree with one hand and moved his other around her so he could slowly yet carefully draw her closer to him. “I’m not trying to confuse you, or hurt you in any means.” He told her as he looked into her eyes. He watched her eyes as he could see how she felt towards him. A smile slowly started to move across his lips and his eyes brightened.

“I really do mean what I have said.” He told her softly. “I really do feel that way towards you.” He added in the same delicate tone. “I want more out this then just the wild pa*sionate sex.” He whispered sweetly to her. He kissed her gently on her neck. “I’m more then sure I can handle you. I’m sure you are a lot sweeter than most of the things in my life.” He added before he drew her against him, “I do love you.” He whispered when he kissed her deeply.

[yuriko]

Yuriko looked at him in shock was he really laughing at her? This was not a laughing matter and here he was laughing how was she supposed to take him seriously now. He wanted something deeper between them hasn’t he hurt her enough now he wants to make it worse by making it deeper and then walking away no she could not have that now that was crossing the line. “Something that was not based around sex?” she asked still in shock that he was really saying this was he still drunk? “Your drunk” she said softly as she watched him climb the tree and get closer to her.

”d*mn it! No don’t look into his Yuriko don’t you know you can’t hide if you look at him he will see you love him, Yuriko you idiot stupid that” she thought in her head as he eyes met his and she was lost in and totally open now he could see it all, her feelings of love and longing for him in her life and not just for two months out of the year. Yuriko shook a little as he wrapped an arm around her and started to pull her closer to him slowly their bodies were getting closer and they were almost touching now. If she had a heart it was still beating it would be going a mile a minute, could a demon of the night be this happy? Well she guessed they could because she was extremely happy that this was happening right now. That’s it was lost in his eyes and he was reading her thoughts as they spoke he was going to see it all everything she feels for him all the times she tried to hide it from him because she knew he just wanted fun.

She listened to him again this time he was going to see the lost and confused feelings in her eyes fighting back tears as best as she could she dreamed of this day but now was scared that he was going to take it all back in a matter of seconds. “Please….” She started as he kissed her neck. There it was again he loved her and she loved him but was she brave enough to say it? Yuriko’s eyes widened as he kissed him deeply and not surprised at all when she kissed him back and mocked a sigh. “I love you too always have” she whispered softly.

[Tristan Gin Revanta]

Tristan smiled as he saw the shock in her as he laughed slightly at the comments about sex. He also could pick up on the fact that she wasn’t too happy about him slightly laughing. He nodded, “Yes, Something stronger-deeper-not based around sex.” He smiled when she asked if he was drunk. “No, I’ve been sober.” He looked into her eyes, so she could see his honesty in what he was about to say, “I’ve actually been sober for the last few days with you.” He smiled faintly at Yuriko. He could only hope that she believed him. He knew deep down that he didn’t deserve her or a chance but he could only hope. “I haven’t been drinking with you. I’ve been staying with you sober.”

He looked into her eyes and he could see her feelings, her love for him. He could sense how she was feeling as he pulled her closer to him. He wasn’t sure how to stress to her that he wasn’t playing some joke on her that he truly wanted to be with her. He looked deeper into her eyes as he slowly released his feeling for wanting her and loving her slowly swell through his eyes. He didn’t stop pulling her towards him until he could fully feel her body completely against his. He looked into her eyes as the longing crossed through his eyes showing that he wanted her, that he wouldn’t be looking at anyone else when a thought crossed his mind. Still looking into her eyes as he bared his soul for her to see, “For the longest time,” he started when he leaned closer to her. “You have been the only girl I’ve been watching, getting jealous over when others came around you. I brushed off the feelings but I can’t do that any longer. It’s too strong-the feelings I have towards you.” He whispered softly before he couldn’t resist as he kissed her so delicately, nothing like he had ever done before.

“I’m not going to take it back, Yuri.” He whispered gently. He could see her feelings and the tears she was fighting back. He figured she was thinking it was a joke but he also knew that she should know him better than that. “Please?” he questioned after she said it. He felt almost intoxicated by her scent as he took her in and held her close-tightly against him. He kissed her delicately, “Be my mate, my love.” He blurted out to her in delicate whisper.

[yuriko]

Yuriko smiled as she listened to him talk about wanting something more and deeper than what they were doing now. Blinking in surprise as he went on to say that he was sober and had been the past couple of days. ”He wasn’t drinking when with her anymore he was stilling loving her when he was sober? This was all getting to be over whelming she had always thought that he got drunk just so that he could be with her. Yuriko smile was big as she realized finally that he really did love her just as much as she loved him. “Sober? Really?” She asked happily and in a shocked tone was she sleeping was this all a dream if it was it was a cruel dream.

Yuriko could not help but look into his eyes as he stared into hers, something happened to her every time her eyes met his it was almost a calming effect also almost seemed as if the two didn’t have to talk for they both talked though their eyes. Yuri could see his strong feelings for her in his eyes and was in shock that he really did love her that this was not a joke and he really wanted her. For years she had thought that he was attracted to humans but really he was falling for her. Her dreams were coming true and if she had a heart she it would be racing and beating quickly.

She felt him pulling her gently closer to him until there was no space between them and without hesitation she wrapped her arms around him tightly not breaking the eye contract that they were in, part of here didn’t want to stop looking into his eyes to scare that if she turned away the look of love and wanting in his eyes would disappear. She listened to him and didn’t noticed that he leaned into kiss her until she felt his lips on hers, but this was a different kiss than he used to do it was delicate and tender instead of hard and ruthless she kissed him back with all the pa*sion she had been hiding for years now.

Yuriko could not help it she started to cry but these were happy tears, tears of enjoy and content everything she ever wanted was coming true with his arms tightly wrapped around him and now he was asking her to be his mate. She was so happy he was holding onto her for if he wasn’t she would have fallen out of the tree in shock “Tristan…” she whispered thought the soft sobbing “You don’t know how long I have wished to hear you say all that, of course I want to be your mate, you love as I want you to be mine. I just didn’t want to push you into anything, but now I know you feel the same and…” she stopped talking and kissed him again leaning into as if afraid to fall out of the tree from shock.

[Tristan Gin Revanta]

Tristan smiled as he nodded, “yes really.” He said as he looked into her eyes. he knew that she was in shock and he knew that he had done a lot that was wrong with her for a long time but he also didn’t want to allow the feelings for the longest time. “Yuri, I only drank to push out memories...but I’ve been so into you none of them have come up or came back. You’ve always had a special part of me now, I’m offering me.” He said as his voice grew softer as he spoke to her. He touched her cheek gently before moving his thumb slowly over her soft lips as he looked from her eyes to her lips and back again.

He started to wonder if she believed his words. He opened himself so she could have the chance to look into him. To know that he was being serious, even sincere. He was starting to be relieved when he picked out that she was finally starting to see his feelings towards her. Through their own silent speech of their eyes, he let her know that he was sorry for taking so long to accept his feelings towards. He could only hope that she’d still accept regardless.

Tristan felt a rush cross over him when she returned the kiss with her hidden pa*sion. He knew that if he had a heartbeat he would have just lost his heart. Tightening his grip around her as he ran his hands gently over her back while he continued to kiss her deeper, more pa*sionate. He loved her. He wanted her. He wasn’t going to deny his feelings for her any longer as he knew everything just disappeared from reality as he continued to kiss her, feel her, take in every ounce of that love and pa*sion that she was releasing over him yet returning it with his own towards her.


Tristan held her with one hand as he wiped her tears carefully with his other before placing his hand around her once more. “I think I know how long you’ve wished and wanted that from me.” He whispered to her as he kissed a few of her remaining tears away. “And?” he whispered faintly before he kissed her back as he released the tree and fell back out of the tree taking her with him. He regained his balance breaking their kiss for only a second as he carefully took the ground and her with ease. He laid her back as he climbed over her kissing her back up to her lips.